So much to say...

Violet:"Mr.Wonka, I'm Violet Beauregarde."
Wonka:"Oh... I don't care."
Violet:"Well, you should care because I'm the girl who's gonna win the special prize at the end."
Wonka:"Well, you do seem confident and confidence is key."

I think I lose confidence in myself almost every day I go to work. Ok, not every day. I have good days. But I swear, every time I'm ready to ask Mandy for a letter, I drop something and lose my confidence. I'm doing great...a lot better. I still feel so much pressure to perform and I haven't been doing very well lately when it comes to performance. But I'm thinking that this is a good lesson I'm learning, because it's a bit of a weakness and I need to get over it before dental school. They'll be brutal. Mandy is definitely not that. So, I'll take it when I can get it.

Kevin's letter is a mess. I'm going to have some explaining to do if they ask me about it. Neurosurgery. You've got to be kidding me.

Dr. Nation's letter is a gem. I haven't heard from Vishy. I should probably check in with him this week.

I'm finished teaching!

I really need to work on my statement.

I can turn my application in on Thursday!!! Eek.

Next time I log in, my application will be submitted and I will continue the waiting game for letters. I think I should still ask Mandy. They can think about it in Vegas. Ah....vacation. Will it ever come?

Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey, hey --- good-bye...

I'm finished with Organic!!!
The final was easy!!!
I don't have to study anymore!!!
Ahh, life. I've missed it. Now I have time to keep my house clean and work in the yard, and go to the pool, and read a book, and watch TV without feeling guilty about it, and not be so tired, and (lose some weight), and enjoy things again. It wasn't all that bad, I can sure make it bad. So I was on the way back to the car listening to some Watermark on my iPod and once I got off the bus, I got so overwhelmed with the idea that it was over, that I had to hold back the tears. Then once I got in the car and could sing out loud, praises to my God for his faithfulness to bring all this to completion for me 6 years after I started this class, I lost it...just a little bit. It's like when I got to the bottom of the Grand Canyon with a 40 pound backpack loading me down and I took it off and sat down, the loss of that burden was so overwhelming, I just cried. I was exhausted, but the feeling of accomplishment was so great (along with the fear of having to get back to the top with my 40 pound backpack) that I had to release. And so I released. The funny thing is that if I really released it all to Jesus all along the way, it wouldn't be so bad. Sure I rely on Him and He's the only reason it happened - His strength given to me - but I keep a little for myself. And I learn. So that maybe in dental school I'll be better about it.

The Latest

I'm really looking forward to next week when I have school behind me and I can really focus on learning dental assisting. There's a lot more to it than I thought and I hate it that I haven't given it my all. Especially when I do stupid stuff like try to take the wrong tooth (temporary) out. Eek! Man, I do some silly things sometimes. I'm learning to laugh it of and still be confident. Like when the impatient man grabbed the x-ray machine from me to line it up. Jerk. I haven't always been the best at that...the laughing it off part. I'm feeling ok about the organic final. I have two more days to study and a lot to do, but it will be ok. I just need to go over the new stuff really well and go over all the homework and tests. I'll be fine. I'm going to meet with Dr. Iyer on Wednesday at 2:00 to ask him for a recommendation. I figure he knows me better than Dr. Iverson. Plus, if Dr. Nation falls through, I'll be ok. I need to work on my personal statement next week. That's really the only thing I have left for the application. I need to correct a bunch of things, but nothing major. I only teach 5 more times!! It's kinda weird to think I won't be teaching next school year. It'll probably be pretty normal all summer long, but I think the first day of school will be a little bizzarre. In no way will I be sad ; ) it will just be weird. Change, you know.

Genetics is a Success!

Congratulations! I'm sure you're glad to know that because of your good performance in the 4 mid-term exams, you have secured an A as your final grade in BIO 325. This means you will not be appearing for the Final exam. This will likely be the last e-mail you will receive from me regarding BIO 325. I hope this course has been useful in teaching you some of the important concepts in genetics and that taking it will prove useful in some ways in the future. All the best with your other exams and for your future studies.

Vishy

And Now....

The application became available today. Actually, since I was up past midnight last night, I checked it out before I went to bed and filled out all the biographical information. It's so exciting!!! I'll work on it a little bit every day, but I can't get carried away. I have a lot of Organic to do before the final. I found out that Dr. Iverson writes really good letters for his top 20 students or so, so I need to rock the final. The genetics test went well, I'm pretty sure I got an A, but we'll find out soon. It was really easy. I was worried for a while when he pulled the angry email out on us and threatened to take away the curve and make the test harder because some guy sent out an email to his discussion section about the "hint" about the test that we weren't supposed to discuss. Apparently Dr. Iyer had a change of heart and the test was a lot like the 2nd one. My lab friend Oleg had him last semester and said he did the same thing: hard, easy, hard easy. I think that's extremely silly, but whatever. An A is an A. I slept in and missed organic today. We didn't have genetics. I'll go to class on Wednesday. Right now, I need to study organic and watch some classes I missed. Then it's off to work at 2 where, hopefully I'll get to actually do something. My patient I was going to assist with on Thursday ended up not getting her temporary, so I missed out. I need the practice!!! I need to start having practice sessions with Lisa once everything is laid out for a procedure and walk through it with her correcting my mistakes. I hope we have time for that today. Then, my dental assisting book will come on Wednesday or so and that will help. For now, Organic.